La Douleur et le Sang   (written by Caitlin's Gallic devotee)

Preface to "La Douleur et le Sang: Please, Accept Me as Your Bitch, Goddess Caitlin!"

This homage was composed by a worshiper of Mistress Caitlin. It was constructed using notes written immediately after a very serious training session directed by the Mistress. The session consisted of two parts: a one-hour session, followed by an additional 30-minute session, separated from the first part by about 40 minutes. During this very intense training, some prolonged ball-beating phases were conducted. In the final session, a non-stop ball beating was performed, lasting more than 5 full minutes. i was really not sure i could handle it, because in the first part, i had had a hard time executing a non-stop 4-minute-long beating (which itself followed a non-stop 3-minute beating), but Caitlin said SHE knew i would be able to do it. And, God, SHE was right. i did it, and i did it well! i am so proud of this. Caitlin really made me push my limits forward. For me, this is an illustration of how powerful is HER HOLY PUSSY. This uninterrupted 5-minute-long beating definitely pleased Mistress Caitlin. It made HER very relaxed and, along with the banging-driven killing of my clit, made HER HOLY PUSSY WET! YES!

As pointed out by the Goddess, the 5-minute record needs to be . . . BEATEN! SHE spoke of a 10-minute-long ball beating as a goal for the near future. This scares me quite a lot, especially when i think of how swollen those balls were after 5 minutes of beating. But SHE said SHE is certain i will be capable of reaching the 10-minute mark successfully, provided that i keep concentrating on the perspective that this will make HER pussy really wet!

—Written by a true loser, under the spell of Mistress Caitlin


La Douleur et le Sang: Please, Accept Me as Your Bitch, Goddess Caitlin!


Here i am, standing. Shaking and lost in the dark. Like a fragile bitch in the cold and hostile world.

Here i am, still alive though! Kept alive by the vibrant desire to adore Mistress Caitlin.

i can do nothing about it: i crave worshiping and serving Caitlin, and i pray for HER to let me do so!

Here i am, looking at my limp loser clit, which hangs miserably.

It is small, weak, bruised, and painful. It is now dead! YES!

i had to fuck it deep and beat it ruthlessly until it dropped dead to please Caitlin!

It was the price to pay to make Caitlin relaxed and happy!

i ruined my clit erection for Caitlin, and i love it! i confess i love it!

It is now a piece of disgusting dead meat, but at the same time, it is a superb clit because it meets Caitlin’s standard.

i am so glad i was able to kill it again for Caitlin!

i am aware of HER long-term plan for me: SHE wants my clit to become totally impotent!

It does scare me, but deep inside my brain, i know that in the long run, i will become an impotent bitch at HER feet.

My clit has no choice but to obey and follow the path toward destruction: that is its fate.


Here i am, standing. Looking at those balls. They are swollen, in pain, injured, and decorated with hematomas and blood!

SHE made me constrain them severely to turn them blue, the proper color for loser balls in the presence of Caitlin.

SHE then commanded several long-lasting ball beatings.

i knew it would be a nightmare, and God, it was, but i loved every single whack.

i had to beat them hard to please Caitlin, and i did! There is never too much ball beating going on for Caitlin! There are never too many hematomas decorating loser balls! There is never too much blood seeping out!

i did all of that, and i repeat that i loved it: i loved the pain; i loved the skin breaking; i loved damaging them;  i love the hematomas on them, and i love the released blood that is a positive indication of a successful beating. i love the way they look now. Indeed, they look beautiful because they were broken for the pleasure and relaxation of Caitlin!

It did make HER relaxed, and that is what matters! It also made HER holy cunt wet, and that is definitively a great achievement for me!

What a victory for Caitlin! As always . . .

Caitlin also has plans for my loser balls. First, i was told to start working on embracing the idea of decorating those swollen balls with sterile needles after prolonged beating.

i find this prospect very intimidating; however, i can sense that over time, sooner or later, it may well become reality, for nothing can halt the power of Caitlin’s perfect pussy. i have already been amazed by the strong power that flows from HER during prolonged ball beating. And the idea of making HER cunt wet by piercing my loser nuts drives me crazy.

However, HER true plan is a long-term plan. It has to do with permanent ball damage. It scares me to death, but again, when i question myself, i can tell that it could well happen, and if it does, i feel i would love it! Developing permanent ball damage in honor of Caitlin would definitely put me in the higher rank of loser bitches: the special category of losers able to break their balls for good to show their devotion to Caitlin!


Here i am, kneeling.

Begging for Caitlin’s attention. Begging for existence.

Begging for HER guidance, HER commands, and HER power.

Praying to still receive some of the light that emanates from HER perfect cunt.

Begging this holy and wet cunt to deliver me from sadness and depression.

Begging for HER shining power to save me from the darkness of this cold and hostile world.



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